And hearing that does keep them away.
Nightmares have dogged her every step for the last month or so. Not things that go bump in the night, but things more realistic and things that scare her. Situations that play out and end up losing people or having to admit that there’s nothing she can do to save those that mean so much.
But he helps. A lot. Far more than she would have ever imagined. It’s like hearing that can just erase every dream that tries to worm it’s way into her head until only the good ones can squeeze through. Like she has her own personal dream catcher.
She blushes a lot more these days, too.
It’s something he’s commented on a few times. That, and the fact that her heart’s beating quicker than lightning every time he hugs her. There’s nothing she can do about it – it’s just him. Just the way he makes her feel. It drives her crazy (in a good way) that all he can do is wink at her and she just smiles like some crazy person.
They’ve been together just shy of a month. It seems so much longer to both of them, that they can hardly believe it. Seems crazy that they knew each other for so long before getting over everything and finally getting together. It’s been a crazy, insane, amazing last few weeks.
Our girl’s never smiled so much in her life.
Or blushed so much, or laughed at such ridiculous things, or been able to write so well. She can sit down now and crank out over a thousand words in 15 or 20 minutes. There’s so much energy in her that she can’t just sit still. She has to do something, anything at all. For the first time in a while, she has an escape other than her bedroom. Has a confidant that doesn’t just meow at her and then run away.
She has someone who means the world to her. Someone that makes her heart beat just a bit faster whenever she just thinks about him. Someone that knows all the right things to say to drag her out of her deepest sadnesses or make her laugh.
Someone that is just so incredibly amazing that she doesn’t know what she did to deserve him.
10 January 2010
09 January 2010
-blushes-
Isn't it just great when someone can make you blush like crazy with a single glance, a single word?
the party, part xxv (25)
The New Year is rung in.
She spends it dancing crazily downtown, seeing one of her favorite bands ever with one of her favorite people. A slower song comes on, and he wraps his arms around her waist and starts dancing with her in a crowd of thirty thousand people. It’s like time slowed down and the world was just the two of them.
A sigh escapes her lips before she can stop it. She didn’t even want to – she’s happy and content and freezing her butt off but it’s all worth it. Because this guy is so amazing. Because she can hardly believe she’s really there. Because she’s never felt this great before.
And this is only their first date.
Only the first time when people would see them in a public and go, “Hey, look, they’re together.” The first time when she really felt claimed by someone who cared for her outside of her family. The first time when she can totally let go of every inhibition she has and be herself. The first time someone has accepted her as such.
Somehow, in that moment, she is a part of everything around her. The happiness of everyone in the crowd, the pleasant tingle of human contact, the music pouring out of the sound system.
And once the music stops, she knows she still has him.
Let’s just call this guy A. (to make things simpler for everyone). He’s pretty much the greatest thing she’s ever seen, and our girl is happier than she been in a long, long while. He…he just knows her. Somehow always knows exactly what to say, like the right response is tattooed on our girl’s forehead, and somehow is just this really sweet guy. She’s never had anything like that. It’s like that Orianthi song – “According to You”. Before, her best friend’s opinion was all that mattered. But this guy? A? His opinion is what’s great. Because he’s just spent time telling her how wonderful she is, how pretty, and how he wouldn’t want to be anywhere else than with her.
But our girl’s more of a shy person than she lets on. This whole relationship thing fairly freaks her out, but she’s ready to rise to the challenge. He’s worth fighting for, and she would do anything not to lose him. Already has, fighting off the rumors and other people’s opinions and trying to just not care.
Because, at the end of the day, just hearing him say “Goodnight” is enough to keep the nightmares at bay.
She spends it dancing crazily downtown, seeing one of her favorite bands ever with one of her favorite people. A slower song comes on, and he wraps his arms around her waist and starts dancing with her in a crowd of thirty thousand people. It’s like time slowed down and the world was just the two of them.
A sigh escapes her lips before she can stop it. She didn’t even want to – she’s happy and content and freezing her butt off but it’s all worth it. Because this guy is so amazing. Because she can hardly believe she’s really there. Because she’s never felt this great before.
And this is only their first date.
Only the first time when people would see them in a public and go, “Hey, look, they’re together.” The first time when she really felt claimed by someone who cared for her outside of her family. The first time when she can totally let go of every inhibition she has and be herself. The first time someone has accepted her as such.
Somehow, in that moment, she is a part of everything around her. The happiness of everyone in the crowd, the pleasant tingle of human contact, the music pouring out of the sound system.
And once the music stops, she knows she still has him.
Let’s just call this guy A. (to make things simpler for everyone). He’s pretty much the greatest thing she’s ever seen, and our girl is happier than she been in a long, long while. He…he just knows her. Somehow always knows exactly what to say, like the right response is tattooed on our girl’s forehead, and somehow is just this really sweet guy. She’s never had anything like that. It’s like that Orianthi song – “According to You”. Before, her best friend’s opinion was all that mattered. But this guy? A? His opinion is what’s great. Because he’s just spent time telling her how wonderful she is, how pretty, and how he wouldn’t want to be anywhere else than with her.
But our girl’s more of a shy person than she lets on. This whole relationship thing fairly freaks her out, but she’s ready to rise to the challenge. He’s worth fighting for, and she would do anything not to lose him. Already has, fighting off the rumors and other people’s opinions and trying to just not care.
Because, at the end of the day, just hearing him say “Goodnight” is enough to keep the nightmares at bay.
07 January 2010
luck o' the irish?
The one day that I ever just need to sit and soak in a nice, long bubble bath? Yeah, there's a mysterious water pipe leak and our house's water gets shut off. Thanks, universe.
06 January 2010
03 January 2010
inigo
I bought a red bellied newt. And, after much consideration, named him Inigo. Like the guy from The Princess Bride. But we call him Iggy.
Here he is, in all his adorable-ness.
02 January 2010
:P
So...post of not really good things, and then one amazing one.
Lost one of my best friends at the tail end of the year. He won't speak to me, and...I don't know, I guess it's harder than I would ever like to admit.
The weather didn't cooperate on New Year's Eve, so me and my someone froze. We kept going inside shops and stuff to warm up, since neither of us thought to bring hand warmers or anything. But it was a blast. Slow danced to "Thunder" when Boys Like Girls played it, and right then the snow started falling...it was really beautiful.
And then, best of all, I got my New Years kiss. Not at midnight, since I had to get home, but as he was wakling me back. I wish I could have frozen time for a minute, just once.
Lost one of my best friends at the tail end of the year. He won't speak to me, and...I don't know, I guess it's harder than I would ever like to admit.
The weather didn't cooperate on New Year's Eve, so me and my someone froze. We kept going inside shops and stuff to warm up, since neither of us thought to bring hand warmers or anything. But it was a blast. Slow danced to "Thunder" when Boys Like Girls played it, and right then the snow started falling...it was really beautiful.
And then, best of all, I got my New Years kiss. Not at midnight, since I had to get home, but as he was wakling me back. I wish I could have frozen time for a minute, just once.
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