this is our night, look in my eyes

Just let go tonight. So close tonight.

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Got my relationship qualifications raised, aka I watched Pride and Prejudice. And Phantom of the Opera. Both for the first time in one night. Basically, from where they were, the level has been raised to Mr. Darcy.

Why don't I be Lizzie, and we can find our own Fitzwilliam Darcy for me?

forever we'll be, run baby run

I'm so introspective today. Will be, probably, until the end of the week. It's always like this around my birthday. I take my life under a magnifying glass, inspect all the bits and pieces of things and see what I need to tweak.

My love life is one of the major pieces to be re-examined. My lovely love, Eric, apparently has someone lined up for me, details to come later. I'm a little bit excited, since he knows me very well and knows my tastes.

Argh, just want to get this party started. Going to go watch some AVPS tomorrow with the Lauren and then helping her clean so we can paint her room soon.

I think I'm going to go off and do another thing like Don't Let Me Fall. It was fun to do, and it really helped me calm down. I suggest anyone reading this do one as well. It clears out your head and helps you sort things out.

does he watch your favorite movies? does he hold you when you cry?

I'm done.

If he's going to keep acting like this, like I'm suddenly the bad guy, then I'll find someone who treats me like a queen and half...Someone that will promise to do the below things, and actually do them.

Does he watch your favorite movies?

Does he hold you when you cry?

Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?

When you've seen it a million times

Does he sing to all your music?

While you dance to purple rain

Does he do all these things?

Like I used to?

...

Will he love you like I loved you?

Will he tell you everyday?

Will he make you feel like your invincible

With every word he'll say

Can you promise me that this was right?

Don't throw it all away

Can you do all these things?

Will you do all these things?

Like we used to

i want your love, and i want your revenge

You know I'm in a bad place when even a playlist of Glee music can't help me. Keep Holding On, Don't Stop Believing, Bad Romance, Dream a Little Dream, No Air, Jessie's Girl...and I still feel sad.

And today's the day that the family is celebrating my sweet sixteen. Going out for dinner, maybe seeing Scott Pilgrim...speaking of which, had to go and make one of these avatars for myself. Make your own here.

I want someone like that. I could be Ramona, I could have the Evil Exes, and my very own Scott Pilgrim...and he would actually love me enough to battle the Evil Exes. And Audra could be my Kim.

Shouldn't be so complex, to find love, but there it is.

every now and then i fall apart

And I need you now tonight

and I need you more than ever

And if you only hold me tight

We'll be holding on forever

And we'll only be making it right

Cuz we'll never be wrong

Nothing I can do - a total eclipse of the heart.

Everything I try to fix only ends up getting worse. Maybe I should just become a hermit. Then less people would be mad at me.

munro (:

Quizzes   Girls Games

don't let me fall

One of my friends told me to just sit down, empty my brain, and write down what I thought. Here's what I got:

Love is gonna free us

Conversations bleeding day and night together

Ringtones foretelling doom and pain

Bright sun, dim inside

Turn down the voices in my head

Alice fell down that hole looking for herself and found Hatter instead

So if I’m Alice, what does that make you?

Eat the cake, drink the wine

Change yourself to fit the mold

It’s pouring in the sunlight and warm in the dark

Hearts, minds, feeling synchronizing

Feeling together and apart

Wanna curl up in bed, go stand on the roof and scream, pretend happiness

Wish you felt something

Don’t let me fall

Catch me if you trip

Are you thinking of me?

Disjointed thoughts, pictures, ideas swirling around to make sense

Watching stars collide and painting roses

Feeling as lost as she

World’s upside down, taste the cake, sip the wine, give in

Don’t let me lose myself

I won’t let you

So why do we argue what is real? What feels right? What is true?

Opposites attract after all, so work at it

Make it work

Fall down the hole