30 December 2009

dear weather...

Why must you be so cold in winter? Don't you know that some of us have to be outside for upwards of 4 hours, and we want to look cute - not like oversized marshmellows?

-sigh- Couldn't you just be like 50 degrees? Just for one night?

'K, thanks, bye.

29 December 2009

i don't care about my guilty pleasure for you...

((Okay, so wrong band's lyric, but whatever.))

Remember that awesome guy I was talking about? Yeah, that's my boyfriend. And to add to the awesomness?


Okay, so it's free and all, but it's the thought that counts. He knows how much I love them, even if he knows none of their songs, and he's taking me out to dinner.

Needless to say, I'm stoked. Utterly and completely stoaked. :)

27 December 2009

<3 <3 <3

I'm so incredibly happy right now, and I can't even begin to tell you how amazing it feels.

It's like I forgot how or something, and he's just now teaching me.


19 December 2009

the party, part xxiv (24)

Two months pass.

Our girl and her best friend are still at the same point – the rollercoaster goes up and down just as it always has, only the highs seem to last a bit longer and the downs don’t get quite as bad as they used to. They both know they have each other’s backs, no matter what, even if sometimes they get so mad they don’t really feel like talking any more.

Any one remember that guy from a while ago? Someone that stepped into the play of our girl’s life around Act 20.5 (also known as Part 20.5 of this crazy story)? And how that seemed to go no where, never got talked about again?

He’s back.

And not just back – no, he’s completely immersed in her life. They’re dating, though it took her almost an entire day to realize it. “If I asked you that question I was going to ask you a while ago, you would say yes, wouldn’t you?” he nonchalantly asks at the end of their shared lunch period one day.

“Of course!” she responds, though at the time she just figures it’s a rhetorical question. It’s not until she actually asks if he meant it that she knows what’s going on. A simple “I already asked the question and got my answer, so what more do we need?” and her heart is a puddle on the floor.

And just in time for Christmas, too.

Apparently, Santa realized that our girl needed some extra cheer this season, because here is this amazing guy that she can’t even believe is her’s. Someone that can help her chase away the cold, someone to help cheer her up in these cold winter months that she loathes so much.

That’s not even all of it! Just as she’s freaking out about not being able to see him over the break, she discovers that he lives on the same block as her! As if it all wasn’t good enough, she gets to add that. Gets to add that this amazing guy is right there, and if she really needs him she knows he’ll come to help. It would only take five minutes at the most to get to her, after all.

So, Merry Christmas to the world, and here’s to hoping everything lasts.


Once he reads this, I hope he realizes.

18 December 2009


I am a self-declared People Watcher Extraordinaire. I study people, pick up their traits and stash them in my overcoat pocket to be used on a character some other time. I pick up their quirks, your quirks, and translate them into something that could be considered beautiful.

And hopefully that will bring me to my dream.

16 December 2009

"as if that weren't enough..."

"Why ask the question when I already know the answer?"


I can not even begin to tell you all how many times I've smiled in the past few days. I think I almost forgot how it was to be this incredibly happy.

Guess this is my refresher course. :)

15 December 2009

"all i want for christmas is you..."

And I might actually get what I want.

Thanks for making my day, hon. Thank you so much.

12 December 2009

really, truly...

I love all my friends, I really do.

But some days?

Well, some days it's like, "Don't you understand that when I say 'leave me alone' I really mean it?" Especially when I need to get away from all of their drama for ONE DAY and they can't handle it. Or I just don't talk to anyone much for one school day, and everyone flips out and tells me to stop being so depressed.

I can get like that sometimes, and it needs to happen. Otherwise, I'll really go crazy.

06 December 2009

oh, yeah....

...did I mention I'm writing a novel?

I am, and have been working on it since November. Check it out here -----> "Au Revior" My goal is to be finished by February, and then get it published soon after.

03 December 2009

the day of peppermints

Everything I try, I seem to fail.

I try to let go, try to let this all slip away from me, but it can't happen.