27 November 2010

oh, baby it's cold outside

Oh yeah.
That's the Glee Christmas album.
Be jealous
(or not, if you're like my bf and don't like them)
Either way, I got me some Darren Criss and Chris Colfer going on in here :)

26 November 2010

the road outside my house is paved with good intentions

you are the dreamer, and we are the dream
i could write it better than you ever felt it

it's gonna be a good day (:

24 November 2010

i'm such an awkward kid

you are the taste of something sweet

guess the world does work in mysterious ways sometimes.

went better than i thought.

saw the boyfren. our first kiss, in front of the apple store.
yay :D

23 November 2010

just drop us a beat...

seriously? why?

the one day i want to go right, not a single thing does. my best friend gets grounded. my boyfriend has a road test. my "sister"...well, that's probably an entirely different story.

all i wanted was one day with the people i care about most. out of the 7 or 8 people i asked? 2 are going. and even then i have to pick both of them up.

it's just...sometimes i don't even know why i bother. why i organize these things in the first place. why make the effort if you're the only one? i don't get it.

i keep hoping that maybe they're all in it together, doing something to surprise me for once.
and then i remember that the idea is silly, why would one think that?
because i know they're not.  

i'm the narrator and this is just the prologue

i'm worried.

something's up with my best friend, and for once he won't tell me what it is.


i don't know what to do. i'm tiredanxiousscaredworried

what if it's something i did?
why won't he tell me?
i thought we had no secrets...

one step at a time. one hope than another


i want to talk to you, but i feel like i'm annoying you. so i am staying off of fb for a good portion of tonight. or we'll get a repeat of last night, where i felt like i was just being ridiculous.

21 November 2010

the moon is gone forever, i hope you're out there somewhere

this week is going to be great, i can feel it.

only monday&&tuesday for school.

mini thanksgiving/hanging out day with some of my closest friends

might be going to chicagoland for the weekend, see the family. if we don't get snowed in here (oh, darn, that'd be so sad.)

but, all in all? i'm super excited.

pull on my hand and say, please just let’s make it this way

20 November 2010

"don't go breaking my heart"..."i couldn't if i tried"

I literally just had the best day. Ever.

Got asked out (kinda...it's complicated-ish) by my crush.

Got to spend a good part of the day with my very best friend.

Had a Frosty.

I'd call this a winsome day, wouldn't you?

yay :3

forget the maybe's. they're all true :)


i've found the ron to my hermione

i've gotten my own harry, and helped him find his "ginny"

i've passed my O.W.L's and N.E.W.T's and emerged bright and shiny new

i'm happy?

16 November 2010



i just got to see my best friend in the whole wide world :3

and surprise him, on top of that.

went to gsaif, which i never can because i never have a ride, and he walked in...the look on his face made me so happy. i've never had someone react like thet when they saw me. ever.


he makes me feel beautiful

15 November 2010

right now, you're the only reason i'm not letting go-oh

everybody live like it's the last day you will ever see

blargh. I just want this to end...WHY IS EVERY GUY I EVER LIKE GAY OR A LOSER?!


I mean, I love Eric and all...I just want a non-gay him? Oh, lord, that sounds terrible, doesn't it? I don't know how to describe iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit :P

That's kinda it, though...he is the perfect guy, in every way shape and form - except that one small detail. And I'm not saying that's a bad thing! It's not! It just kinda sucks, you know?



14 November 2010

tell me how i've lost my power

i thought that we'd make it.

I'm so sorry, screamers, that I haven't gotten anything new to you lately. Between Like the Stars Above, Golden Children, Au Revior and other things (tumblr, school, RL, stuff like that...)

right now you're the only reason i'm not letting go

Still feeling weird. Still have no idea why.

I just feel...like I need to type and type and type and it still won't be enough. Maybe it's not just my body that's out of order, but my head too...maybe?

I could write for days and not empty my skull.

keep me safe inside your arms like towers, tower over me

I know I sound pathetic and whiny, but all I want is someone to be with. To let me curl up in their arms, kiss me on the forehead and tell me they'll love me forever. Is that so much to ask?

Applied for a few jobs...Mom says it'll "help get me out of my head". I like my head, thank you very much. I'll admit, sometimes it's not the greatest place ever, but whatever. It's better than most. Not filled with sex&drugs&booze, right?


13 November 2010

if you love harry potter, call 267-436-5109

Writer Ninja has taken over....

Lo there. It is Writer Ninja here!
One thing I have noticed about Addy is that she has a great passion for writing. I can only wish her the best in the future because I know it will be bright. In honor of her writing aspirations, I have decided to submit this poem I wrote months ago. I hope you all enjoy it.

He stood at the edge of a murky beach in a maddened haze.
Six feet under, they were in a grave.
The mistakes he made all began to play back.
His world’s canvas was becoming a tortured shade of black.
“What if I came home sooner,” he wondered. “What if I was better to them when they were alive?”
He looked over the peer ready to take the tumultuous dive.
About to jump, with bloodshot eyes, he looked into the grimy ocean and rocks to see his reflection below.
He felt a loving whisper of those he cared about in his ear and then he did know.
Sometimes the hardest thing in life is truly accepting yourself and what you’ve done.
Because of acceptance, he lived to stand on the pier and watch the rising sun.

Best wishes,

maybe you can't love me the way i want you to, but you love me the way i need you to and that makes all the difference

10 November 2010

09 November 2010

years of dreaming just can't be wrong.


just sayin'. 

Someone wanna send me something like that? Cuz I need some extra lovin'.

08 November 2010


Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me

i don't love you like i did yesterday

Oh, how I wish I could block certain people from this blog. Not just their computers, but them, you know?
Obviously, if anyone reads the comments, they can figure out who real quick.
I just wanna curl up. Sleep. Not feel sick.
Only half day of work tomorrow, all day Wednesday, and half on Thursday, and I'm done for the week.
Yay for short school times.

06 November 2010

harry potter and aladdin...

Sophie: How did you escape during the siege of the palace?
Anastasia: There was a boy, a boy who worked in the palaceHe opened a wall… I’m sorry, that’s crazy walls opening…
Dimitri: She’s the princess. 

05 November 2010

sometimes, all i want to do is curl up in bed and blast my favorite bands until my ears bleed. maybe then everything will go back to how it was, and i can pretend to be peter pan for one more day. just one more day, please.

& the best way to make it through with hearts and wrists intact is to realize 2 outta 3 ain't bad

Hey i know wev ben haveing our differnce for along time. just wanted say sry if any it offended you or w/e and just want see how ur life going

What offends me is how you and Audra both have been treating me since you've been spending time with Calvin. Frankly, it makes me avoid spending time with you as much as possible - to the point that it has become that I only do at lunch, because of Audra and Lenore. Thank you for apologizing, but if you continue to treat me like you did the other day then we have nothing more to discuss

Also, notice his spelling. That offends me as well. Seriously, after everything he's done lately he thinks that will help? Nope. not really. Especially when he signs out on me instead of ever responding back :P