I think I figured out why I'm so fixated on finding a guy and falling in love.
Because I just have this gut feeling I'm going to get hurt, and I want to get it done sooner rather than later so it's less time for my "fixer" to find my broken heart and patch it up.
I know that sounds dumb, but I think that might just be it. Yay for psycho-analyzing yourself, right? :P