An Impossible Life

Today is impossible
I can not get by
I see you every where I go
And I am scared

Living without you
Is the hardest thing
I’ll ever do

I don’t know what to do,
Where to go,
To escape from
Everything that reminds me of you

I see someone walking
Is it you?
Or those shoes you always wore…
They whisper memories from their spot near me

I turn around
Startled by a sudden burst
Of our song on the radio
I imagine you are with me

I remember that horrible night
The words spoken and not
An apology on my tongue
That never got out

I rush to the phone
Punching in the familiar numbers
Will you answer?
My heart leaps in terror

You do!
“Hello?” from that velvet voice
I answer back,
Voice quiet and meek

“I’m sorry” I whisper
Tears falling for years.
“I was stupid, and
Selfish.”

You reassure me,
Get in the car.
Moments later,
You’re with me
Again.

~
Anyone had this happen to them before? And, if so, how did you cope? Did they come back, did you crumble, would you even admit you were stupid and selfish?

I wrote this originally for a novel I wanted to write using regular means and poetry infused within it. Hm...reading it over again makes me want to go write. Maybe I shall.